Meh Puppeh!

The Stinker and I are finally going to have a new addition to our home!  After many weeks digging online and being punked by both the Humane Society and douchebags on Craigslist.  Twice.  I'm heading about an hour outside of Omaha to get our new pup tonight!  Couldn't BE more excited!!

I wanted a small-ish dog.  Something that didn't shed a ton would be great, but it wasn't a deal breaker.  Basically we wanted a sweet dog to add some fun, excitement and snuggles to our family.

I'll post pictures soon of the new addition... All two of you that read this will be in total suspense, I'm sure....

One another note, I've decided I'm pretty much done with Facebook.  I just don't have the patience anymore.  Not even because of the new stupid layout, but because the people are annoying to me.  I only have about 25-30 "real" friends on there that I actually give a shit about, and the rest of the people are jerks I went to High School with.  I'd love to go through and delete them all.  I really could care less.

I've been spending more time on Twitter where I can basically be anonymous while saying whatever is on my mind (which isn't a lot.  For some reason Twitter intimidates me, but it's fun to read other people's whacked out thoughts).  I have a crush on a couple of guys I follow, they don't know I exist, but they are FUNNY.  Nothing I love more than a funny guy.  Nothing, people.  I'd make out with a not so hot dude any day of the week if he can make me laugh.  Trust me.  Funny = pants off.  *grin*.  Anyway, Twitter is becoming much more interesting to read then stupid FB where people only post about their perfect kids, politics, or any other topic I don't really give a fuck about. 

The BFF and I are going to Jersey Boys Saturday afternoon and I'm super pumped!  I've heard amazing things about it and since I don't have a NYC trip planned any time soon, seeing it in good ol Omaha is the next best thing! 

Have a good Thursday, internets!!

Old Fart

Yep.  I'm old.  I don't usually feel it and I know most of the time I don't look it, but this week has been tough!  I turned 38 on the 13th and I'm having a tough time with that number.  It's just too damn close to FORTY!  How did this happen?  40?!?! 

The girls and I went out to my favorite little hole in the wall Mexican restuarant.  I stuffed my face and had a few margaritas - it was a good night.  For an old lady. 

Since I'm officially old and now can't form complete thoughts, eat spicy food, or control my own bladder... here are some random things happening in my world.

- I LOVE FALL!  Yep, yelling at you.  All things fall make me a very happy girl.  I love wearing sweatshirts and jeans, I love having my house decorated with my "fall stuff", I love sleeping with the windows open and waking up to a freezing house, I love fall candle and lotion flavors, I love hitting the pumpkin patch with the Stinker, I love football... LOVE LOVE LOVE. 

- The Stinker lost her first tooth the second week of Kindergarten.  I hate teeth.  I made the X come over and yank that sucker out when it was ready because there was no way in hell I was going to do it.  *shudder*  Teeth and feet are disgusting and I should never have to touch either.  Ever. 

- I've decided to stop drinking beer.  This is noteworthy because I love beer.  No, really.  I heart it.  I've always been a beer girl.  As I've gotten older drinking any kind of beer makes me feel like complete shit.  I have stomach problems on a good day, and a frothy cold one magnifies that issue by about 1000%.  It also isn't good for the waistline and well, I'm almost 40....  I should start drinking something more "grown up", right?  I emailed this fact to the BFF and her response to my email was "WTF!?!?  What's wrong with you?"  Yeah.  She's a beer drinker, too. 

- I'm in desperate need of a vacation.  For reals.  I'm hoarding vacation days like a fat kid who loves donuts because of my impending 14 night Australia cruise in January.  It's killing me.  Must.have.time.off  *le sigh*

Hope everyone has a great weekend.... The Stinker and I have big plans of doing nothing!  I'm sure there will be some drinking with friends (no beer) while the kids play.  Then after she's zonked out, mommy will lounge on the couch and cyber stalk people via facebook and twitter.  Good times had by all! 

Peace out, bitches!!

Saboteur

I can honestly say that a couple of times since I've been divorced/single I've (semi) intentionally screwed up a new relationship.  It's been awhile since I've done this, and I may not have known it at the time, but that's exactly what I did.

Perfect example is the very first person I dated after the X and I split up.  I was hardly out of the X's house before I was totally smitten with the new guy.  Hindsight is always 20/20 as we know, and I can say with complete certainty that I fucked up that relationship on purpose.  I was a hot mess from the get go.  Deep down I was in no way ready to get into something serious.  The part that sucks is that he was a really great guy.  The BFF and I have said many times over the last few years that if I'd met him now, at this point in my life, we'd be amazing together.  He was really good and I was newly single and very very bad.   

I wonder if that is what's happening in my life right now... but this time I'm not the saboteur.  Cpt Ron seems to be douche-bagging it up lately.  I wonder if he's pulling an "emily" and fucking things up because he's not ready for a real relationship.  Without getting into his person life too much, he's fresh out of a divorce and from the beginning that (and other factors) have made me a wee bit nervous.  Nervous enough to run away?  Nah... but nervous enough to take a small step back.  

Has anyone else ever done this?  Messed up your own relationship because you weren't ready for what was before you?  Do I run away or give him the time and understanding to get through all of this while I wait patiently... Decisions, decisions....