50 Shades of Confused

I always go so long without a post and then have many many things to say... Here are a few things happening in my life. 

I started 50 Shades of Grey this past week... has anyone else read this?  Oh my holy hell it's awful.  Crazy scary awful.  I'm not a prude by any sense of the imagination (I love me some sex) but the things this creepo does to this stupid girl are appalling.  Maybe because I'm not a lonely housewife (who I think is the target audience) I am unable to enjoy this book.  I'm honestly struggling to get through it.  Makes matters worse because the grammar and writing are deplorable.  I'm a grammer nazi and it's hard to not chuck the iPad across the room with some of the mistakes in this book.  Barf. 

For the first time since my divorce I've been "set up" with someone through a friend of a friend.  I haven't really dated a ton in the last year or so, and being blindly set up isn't something I've ever done.  I have to say so far... I'm pleasantly surprised.  He's a couple of years younger than me, very cute, girls around The Stinkers age, great job.  Talked to him on the phone for about an hour and a half the other night.  Felt like I was in High School again chatting on the phone and it was a good feeling.  We are meeting this week.... *fingers crossed*   

My sister and her now 5 month old baby in Kidney failure are actually hanging in there.  He's such a little punkin.  They have been able to keep dialysis at bay for the time being and he's doing ok at home.  That's the most important thing right now.  I'm so glad he's home where he belongs with his family.  Prayers are always appreciated.

Why is it just when I start to forget and let myself fall for someone new, my past pops up and sucker punches me in the gut.  I had a really tough time dealing with DoucheBag's marriage and profession of (too late) love for me.  Now the ONE guy that I can't get over pops back into my life.  I can't do it.  I want to see him, but I know that's not the right decision.  I can't see him in person when he's in another relationship, knowing I'm still a little in love with him.  I thought I maybe could, but it's not fair to me and my mental stability.  I embarrassed myself by turning into a crazy person when he emailed me today.  He does that to me!  That new relationship I mentioned?  I'd drop it like a fucking hot potato for him, but it'll never happen.  Ever.  And that breaks my heart.

I was the lucky recipient of a colonoscopy last week.  Yea me!  I ended up in the ER Saturday morning with some severe tummy issues (I've always had weird stomach issues, but they've been getting worse and worse).  They decided I needed a endoscopy and colonoscopy the next day.  So I got scoped from both ends without so much as a kiss or a nice dinner.  It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be and all they found were some little ulcers in my stomach they are keeping an eye on.  I've felt better this past week and hope to not have to have that procedure again for a long time....

All in all life is good and I'm hanging in there... hope everyone else is, too!

Nothing like a good book

I love to read.  I always have.  I'm insatiable when it comes to books.  Always.have.to.read.  Always.

This week I read The Bungalow by Sarah Jio and I fell in love with it.  This story and characters absolutely consumed me for 24 hours and I couldn't put it down.  That doesn't happen very often, but when it does I love that feeling. 

It's not a long book and a very easy read, but I highly recommend it.  Getting lost in the South Pacific during WWII with these characters was the best way I could think of to spend a lazy day duing the week. 

Amazing.